Where Did That Writing Passion Go?

Lately, I've been having a strong urge to write once again.
My Muse has been bugging me to write more, and often too.
I remember I was really passionate about writing fiction once upon a time. I could just take a look at a simple object and make a story out of it on the spot. As an example, I could look at a simple tree and get an idea of doing a story of the darkness of the night and assassins and cruelty. It sounds messed up when I write it down but I do have a clear idea in my mind. Unfortunately, I suck at expressing myself properly.

By the way, I have a blog post about my list of stories to be written. Unfortunately, it was never carried out.
However, I have made minor progress with Wings of Hope. I rewrote their profiles and made major changes with the story line. I'm glad I never got far with Wings of Hope because then, I wouldn't have the heart to rewrite it.
I would love to work with Wings of Hope once again cause it's my very first original story I came up with.

Aside from Wings of Hope, I'm still thinking of writing a yuri-themed story. It has always been on my mind.
I think it'll be a challenge for me but it'll be fun to write it out. I need to observe people more before materializing my ideas for this story. It's slightly different from what I had in mind in that post.
I'll probably use a few AKB48 songs as my inspiration to write this story, such as Kinjirareta Futari.

Original stories aside, I'm starting to miss writing fanfics.
I have a few fanfics I wanna work on, mostly based on the anime/manga, Weiss Kreuz. *coughsSchwarzcoughs*
I really love working with Schwarz. They're quite easy to write but difficult in a way cause I don't see them much in the anime. I had to rely on drama CDs and the manga to extract more information learn more about them.

Honestly, the only reason I stopped writing was because I suck at it.
I know I'm really bad at writing and people tell me that but I wished they had constructive criticisms instead.
I like knowing what can be improved. It helps me if people were much more straight-forward.
I really hate it when people say they hate my stories or say my stories suck without any reason. What is so bad about it? Do you hate my writing style? Are the details too much? Is it boring? If it's boring, which part?
If you simply hate my writing style, then say so. I wouldn't bug you about my stories if you said so.
I have certain writing styles I'm attracted to too, such as Darren Shan and P.C. Cast.

I should really put "trying to write once again" as one of my resolutions this year. LOL.
But that, I don't think I'll ever do it again. I think. But I hope I do kick start this passion I once had.
I think I was getting better, comparing my writing style from when I was 10 and 15.
Unfortunately, I stopped and all my efforts went directly into the gutter. So, I have to restart everything again.

And end of post. Abrupt much? (*≧▽≦)